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…it’s not because they’re partner is not capable of making them happy.nope its not like that.love is patient..why do they cheat?

simple…they really dont love or care about you…for them relationship is just for fun and so that they have something to boast to their peers or so that they won’t feel lonely..

..and that’s the reason why i just don’t court easily and right away. i don’t wanna be the casue of pain someday..

i rather be hurt that to hurt..

so if what i fel is just plain admiration?..all im gonna do is to tell that person (syempre girl,alangan naman pag boy) that i like you because of this because of that but to court her?

nope… if i don’t feel any love then better leave it at that becoz if i’ll court and later the shallow chemistry will be gone,then babae ang kawawa kasi they get easily attach emotionally…

that’s why my fellow guys out there..if u are really man enough! pls don’t play with girls..they oughtta be respected and not to be messed around with…

Real man is not tested by how many girlfriend or how many relationship he broke but how responsible he is in his commitment and will always be there no matter what !!!

-michael-

Currently Listening: What Are You Waiting For? By FM Static Release date: 22 July, 2003

Currently Listening: Lonely Runs Both Ways By Alison Krauss and Union Station Release date: 23 November, 2004

Currently Listening: Stand Still, Look Pretty By The Wreckers Release date: 23 May, 2006

For those of you who wonder,nope im not lying with those cd i posted.im not a liar. i am really listening to those cd whether on a cd player,computer,or mp3 player..it doesnt matter what format but those are really the cds for the day…

that’s how i discipline my ears.hehehehe

Currently Listening: Smile, It’s the End of the World By Hawk Nelson Release date: 17 August, 2006

i always believe not do unto others what u don’t want others done unto you…

therefore, never underestimate a person if u don’t wanna be underestimated…

never undermine a person if u don’t wanna be undermined…

never choose a friend if u want to be choosen by others…

never lie to someone who treated u as a real friend if u don’t wanna be lied by someone special to you big time…

never pretend to be who u are if u don’t wanna end up with a pretentious partner for life…

never brag and whine about others doing u wrong before u  examine urself…

never choose the kind of food u eat if u still wanna eat good food later in life…

never complain because someone cares for you/ or someone likes you if you wanna be liked by the right one for you someday…

never hurt the person who cares for you if u don’t wanna get hurt forever…

..and never ever ever underestimate the golden rule if u don’t wanna be miserable forever !!!!!

…it works so hang on…

Currently Listening: Nickel Creek By Nickel Creek Release date: 21 March, 2000

Currently Listening: Not All Who Wander Are Lost By Chris Thile Release date: 09 October, 2001

Currently Listening: How to Grow a Woman from the Ground By Chris Thile Release date: 12 September, 2006

When you realize that nobody really takes u seriously,u feel down and lonely. But i came to realized that all these are part of life. You can’t really trust the people around you anymore because if u pour ur trust in them,they’ll just turn u down and you’ll be depressed big time and the person concern doesn’t even care if he/she’s the reason ur down.

So my lesson for today,

DO NO LONGER TRUST THE PEOPLE AROUND YOU COMPLETELY. IF THEY SHOW FRIENDSHIP AND YOU FEEL IMPORTANT TO THEM,CUT IT OFF WHILE IT’S EARLY CAUSE U MIGHT WAKE UP SOMEDAY FEELING ALONE AND LONELY AGAIN WITH NO FRIENDS AROUND YOU…especially when ur friends all have girlfriends and boyfriends and u left alone with no one !!!

Currently Listening: Slidin Home By John Starling & Carolina Star Release date: 20 February, 2007

Currently Listening: Jason Aldean By Jason Aldean Release date: 26 July, 2005

Currently Listening: Define the Great Line By Underoath Release date: 20 June, 2006

Currently Listening: I Wish We All Could Win By The Afters Release date: 22 February, 2005

Currently Listening: Lifesong By Casting Crowns Release date: 30 August, 2005

Currently Listening: Time Well Wasted By Brad Paisley Release date: 16 August, 2005

Currently Listening: Place in the Sun By Tim McGraw Release date: 04 May, 1999

Currently Listening: A Little More Personal (Raw) By Lindsay Lohan Release date: 06 December, 2005

im immunized by this mess a very long time ago.

and so if ever it’ll happen again,i’m AS cold as the north pole.

but why do i still cry everytime i remember how cruel people are?

especially those u treated as special friends and in return treat u like nothing important to them?

those people u trreated nicely but in return will lie to you and never take u seriously?

im used to those kind of people…

i met a friend whom i thought is different but end up just like them..

worst,she didn’t even know im hurt by her actions..

im hurt not because i have feelings for her(nope i do not have) but because i did treat her as my true and real friend but in the end im nothing important to her.

even though she told me its ok and that nothing’s changed,still i can feel it..

i maY BE wrong and i hope i am..because she’s the bestfriend i want but can never have..

but still im hoping that someday people will treat me well…

that someday im not gonna be used up…

that someday life will be fair to me (in a good way)…

that someday those people who treated me as if im just a shadow will not be karma…

because i dont believe in karma

but i believe in  guilt…if u have a heart to feel it…

Currently Listening: Sound of Melodies By Leeland Release date: 15 August, 2006

Currently Listening: Smile, It’s the End of the World By Hawk Nelson Release date: 17 August, 2006 Currently Listening: What Are You Waiting For? By FM Static Release date: 22 July, 2003

Currently Listening: Straight to Hell By Hank Williams III Release date: 28 February, 2006

Currently Listening: The Anatomy of the Tongue in Cheek By Relient K Release date: 28 August, 2001 Currently Listening: The Ultimate Collection (Dlx Package) By Hank Williams Release date: 23 July, 2002

a lot of people thought that i’m easy to be fooled because it seems like i believe evry statement they say…

but the truth is nope..i’m an analyzer

i don’t really jump into conclusion (aS OPPOSED TO MY BAND NAME).

i figured things first and consider proper logic…and its funny actually because i have shocked so many people already. they thought they’d put me in their pocket….

well, turns out im the one putting them in my pocket with consequences they might not like…

…and the funny thing is,they don’t even realized they’ve been strucked by their own actions already…

…this foolish world..

..

the moment you forgive,you’ll realize that you are setting a person free and surprisingly,you’ll see that that person you set free is actually….YOURSELF

so if u wanna live healthy and happy,lower than ur pride and learn to forgive.

But if you wanna stay miserable for the rest of your life,then do not forgive.remember,no matter how many mask you’ll wear,if u don’y forgive,you’ll never be happy even if you pretend to be…

I know this is hard folks,but i’ve been there…Heck,i’ve been a reject all my life.i feel like nobody loves me (which im afraid is true)..But heck, i know Jesus does love me and so i have a reason to live still when my horizon is getting darker by the day…

REJECTION IS MY BESTFRIEND and its ok…im alright..im not gonna cry…heck,i got blog tonight…

i think its part of life..or maybe its only part of my life..

mainell told me im self pitying(did i spell this right?) but I’M NOT…I’m just facing the reality of my life ….

…so be it…

michael anthony curan

Currently Listening: White Flag By Shaun Groves Release date: 12 July, 2005

Currently Listening: Divine Discontent By Sixpence None the Richer Release date: 29 October, 2002

Currently Listening: The Black Parade By My Chemical Romance Release date: 24 October, 2006

Currently Listening: Let It Go By Tim McGraw Release date: 27 March, 2007

a free writing exercise is good for
the heart….and also the brain..and
the fingers

Resurfaced (for Christine Mary)

written by michael anthony curan

i know its hard for you now
but i still live and need to move on
i admit i do love you but that was
when i was still courting you

you failed my love and i understand you
i moved on cause i thought i don’t
have a chance on you
and now that i don’t call (text is
boring),
i heard you asked ’bout me
so i called you just out of curiousity.

but you mistook my call as effort and
endurance
you thought im sweet cause even though
you break my heart.
i still remain..

but girl the feeling i have is long
time gone
i learned to forget and now the
feeling is gone
im now happy with my life even without
you by myside.

…and then out of nowhere you told me
everything,
you were just scared i’ll hurt you in
the end.
you were not sure bout me but most of
all,
you were not sure bout you…

…on what you feel if it is true.

you’re afraid to venture into love
when love is knocking.
and now that i found another,
you revealed to me ’bout you’re real
feeling,
that when i did court you,
the truth is you loved me too
you were just afraid so u told
me "no"

2007 words:michael anthony curan

"see,girls are complicated…they
already knew they’ll regret with their
decisions but still ….grrr…

Currently Listening: Right Now By Rushlow Release date: 09 December, 2003

Currently Listening: Major Lodge Victory By Gin Blossoms Release date: 08 August, 2006

Currently Listening: See the Morning By Chris Tomlin Release date: 26 September, 2006

"But i pray everyday that God will bless me and make me a blessing to someone everyday"

    -qouted form my previous post-

Am i really a blessing to you guys?

pls be honest….

This is a post i did back in  June 5,2006..I think its worth reposting except the first paragraph about water.really its non sense anyway. Just me rambling about almost missing a bath..hahahaha

Here’s the blog i did on June 5,2006 beginning with paragraph two:

"Anyways i went on to eat and read a few chapters from country songwriter Betty Jean Robinson’s book Up On Melody MOuntain about her struggle as a poor child growing up in the mountains of Kentucky.

Also read Romans chapter 2 today about the kindness of God that leads to repentance.that’s something i really pondered on because i wonder how God’s kindness leads to repentance.Do we repent our sins when we enjoyed all the luxuries God has given us? Do we repent when our lives seems to float just like we wanted it to be?I wonder why the kindness of God leads to repentance.

Then suddenly i got some kinda mind thought-shifting.I remember those days in my life that i deserved brutal punishment from God for always disobeying Him yet i was bailed out from it.Those days when i deserved to die yet God let me live…..just to have a second chance.Oh, how could i be so foolish! How could i not get it? Because of God’s kindness i’n still here typing this journal on myspace.Because of God’s kindness i’m still writing songs.Because of GOd’s kindness i stil have a beautiful and caring mother.Because of God’s kindness i’m still a medical technology student (i thought i’ll be debarred).

Praise the Lord ! Thank God for sparing my unfaithful life.I know no matter how i try to be good i can never achieve it without the grace of God.Not that being good can take you to heaven.No.Heaven is not a matter of either ur bad or good.It’s a free gift of God but with an expensive cost,the blood of Jesus.In order to go there(heaven),all you have to do is recognize that you are a sinner in need of God’s forgiveness and accept Jesus in your heart.

But to tell you the truth,i only arrived at that conclusion in life back in the days when i felt so useless and desolate.When i felt suicide is the only answer.But thank God His kindness came over my life,and it lead me to repentance!

So am i a good person now? DO i have halos on my head? No.I’m still like everybody,a sinner.But the difference is that now i have hope.Now i am secured that when i die,heaven is where i go.

I’m still a pilgrim in this world and can only arrive at perfection when the day will come that i’ll be there with the angels.

So why do i brag myself to be good?I never brag myself to be good cause like i said i can never do so.But i pray everyday that God will bless me and make me a blessing to someone everyday.And that by his grace,I wil not mess up my life today….and the days to come."

amen

Michael Anthony Curan

Currently Listening: How to Grow a Woman from the Ground By Chris Thile Release date: 12 September, 2006

Currently Listening: Not All Who Wander Are Lost By Chris Thile Release date: 09 October, 2001

Currently Listening: Shania Twain - Greatest Hits By Shania Twain Release date: 09 November, 2004

Currently Listening: The Road to Here By Little Big Town Release date: 04 October, 2005

Currently Reading: The Donor By Frank M. Robinson Release date: 30 August, 2005