CURBLOGZ

why is it that my actions are always
being misinterpreted as something
deeper when in fact it is the most
shallow of all shallowness???

i care. that’s what i do.and sometimes
i care too much to the point that i do
actually put pain to the person i
cared about.

and its wrong… and i knew it..but
too late..

..and yeah speaking of care,i am
concern to my friends.. and that
doesn’t mean that im GAY if im concern
to a guy. Got it?

same thing with girls. it doesn’t mean
i have a feeling for a particular
person if im concern to her..got it?

but then again naive and loner as i
am,i guess i don’t know much about
friendship and that i have sooo much
to learn…

i received a comment couple of days
back that a friend of mine thought i
went extreme because she thought i
treated her like a girlfriend(besides
the fact that she’s a girl and a
friend) because im too protective
daw.well,that’s according to her.

(for the record im not being over-
protective. sometimes a friend just
see the pain before it drops and its
his instinct to protect the other.not
that he doen’t want that friend to
learn on her/his own experience.its
just that sometimes there are things
that u dont have to experience in
order to learn.)

well,its not what actually is in my
mind.but then again i got lost in
interpretation…

and so lessons learned,…

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I’m awake taking a break from studying
pre final exam tomorrow and so i might
as well post anything silly..

and silly it is,here’s what’s spinning
in my headphone;

1.OVER THE RHINE- If Nothing Else

2.THE FRAY- How To save A Life

3.TEDDY GEIGER- Confidence (for You I
Will)

4.BRIAN LITTRELL- Welcome Home (You)

5.FOUNTAINS OF WAYNE-Hung Up On You

6.OLD 97’s- Lonely Holiday (imaginary
friend)

7.JASON BLAINE- What I can’t Forget

8.CHRIS TOMLIN- Amazing Grace(My
chains Are Gone)

9.HYPERSTATIC UNION- Praying For Sunny
Days

10.PLUMB- All My Tears

11.BEYONCE-Irreplaceable

12.NADA SURF- Always Love

13.TIM McGRAW- Last Dollar

14.MICHAEL ANTHONY CURAN- Franny I’m
Sorry(demo)

15.HAWK NELSON- Everything You Ever
Wanted

16.RELIENT K- Fallen Man

17.JOJO- Too Little Too Late

18.RYAN ADAMS- Come Pick Me Up

19.NICKEL CREEK- The Fox

20.CHRIS THILE- Dead Leaves and Dirty
Ground

21.SWITCHFOOT- Crazy In Love

22.JARS OF CLAY- Water Under The Bridge

23.LINKIN PARK- Nobodys Listening

24.NAS ft. Will.I.Am.- Hiphop Is Dead

25.AKON Ft. EMINEM- Smack That

26.DASHBOARD CONFESSIONAL- Don’t Wait

27.CAEDMON’s CALL- The Story

28.dc TALK-Between You And Me

29.SNOW PATROL-Hand Open

30.HILLSONG UNITED-What The World
could Never Take

31.WOLFGANG AMADEUS MOZART- The
Marriage of Figgaro (as performed by
the LONDON PHILHARMONIC ORCHESTRA)

32.CHRIS THILE & BELA FLECK- Bach
Variation (live medley)

33.THE SHINS- Phantom Limb

dont just stare there. go to itunes music store and get them stuff..they’re good for the ears and for the mind (except that AKON track. i just love the beat!!!)

besides biblical point,here’s an
interesting fact i found n having pre-
marital sex:

"It’s important to understand that
when a woman has sex, she releases
oxytocin and bonds with her partner.
Oxytocin is called the "snuggle
chemical." It triggers orgasm, but
it’s also released when a mother
breast-feeds. It makes you feel close
and connected and vulnerable. The
effects of oxytocin are offset by
testosterone, so a high-testosterone
person doesn’t bond from having sex.
And there you have it: Bad boys don’t
get attached! They say all these
wonderful things, and you get this
chemical rush that lowers your
defenses. But he could be gone the
next day. He could lose interest."

So,no matter how u gals deny that its
ok to have pre-marital sex nad it has
no effect psychologically,well,wait
until u and ur boyfriend breaks up…

by then u started to live life as if
forgetting yesterday but each night
constantly battling the guilt inside
of you…u feel connected and its a
fact!!!!

and that’s the reason why sex is
designed for marriage casue im telling
you,conscience and guilt could kill
you slowly!!!!

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i stumble into this article that  dating back then in the 1900 heydays  was actually synonymous for  prostitution…

and as i ponder it today,still is  actually (with few exceptions).

this is how i came out with this  thinking:  i observed a lot of my guy-friends and  girl-friends anfd most of them hooked  up on the opposite sex.  what i observed is that most guys do  actually spent more money and time on  dating not because they love the girl  but because there’s something in her  that they want… 

noticed ladies how,when a guy treats u  out(assuming ur lovers  already),especially in a movie,that he  always lean for a kiss? and that kiss  would eventually lead to caressing  your boobs and touching what’s behind  the panties…

or as ur relationship comes longer  enuf the guy would eventually ask for  a sex. or some smart guys don’t ask  actually(it would be dumb to  ask)..what they do is led u into a  situation where u will emotionally  fall and have some erotica moment.and  then u dont even realized it,it  happened.. 

and also there are some girls who,myt  not like the idea of sex in a bf-gf  relationship but then feel pressure to  do so because they think its love and  that they’re doing a favor to their  boyfriend…  ..

doing a favor in return of what their boyfriend did for them…ring a bell? well,that is actually the definition of prostitution.

Well here’s another course:

or somegirls may jump into it  because she will rationalize THAT in  todays culture its acceptable…

well no matter how acceptable it is,if its wrong then guilt will still haunts u if ever ur human enough to have a conscience…

Wincing the Night Away By The Shins Release Date: Jan 23, 2007

plus whoever invented that
hairstyle?…

lot of people thought when u got that
kind of hairstyle ur emo…and yeah i
see lots of kids like this (im even a
kid myself) who dress black with a
print MY CHEMICAL ROMANCE and wear
their hair like the drummer of
UNDEROATH and then they call
themselves emo…and when ask what
does Reinventing Your Exit by
Underoath means and why it is EMO,they
dont even know…they cannot tell
you..Why? becasue these kids are not
really emo,they’re just being
victimized by todays trend (which is
de to media) and we kids wanna be
cool..we don’t wanna be outdated..

that’s why u can see my peers today in
the mall dress like Eminem(hiphop)
pretending they can relate to him and
doesnt even know how to rap..

or dress like UNDEROATH and doesnt
even know what their songs mean..

lets face it folks, EMO is not define
by looks or infact no music should b
defined by looks…i mean music is
music…

MU CHEMICAL ROMANCE is a great emo
punk rock and DASHBOARD is emo
acoustic but looking at their
publicity photos they doesn’t look
like EMO at all,,, i respect band like
these who doesn’t comform to what the
label told them…

and Ryan Adams and Jack Ingram are
very country but they look like EMO
kids than My Chemical Romance…

lets give music a chance to b what it
is…

and i dont care if u dress like
underoath or eminem or tim mcgraw or
even dress like *NSYNC(are they still
alive?) for as long as ur comfortable
and NOT BECOZ U WANNA BE THE NEXT BIG
FREAK !!!

Currently Listening: Not All Who Wander Are Lost By Chris Thile Release date: 09 October, 2001

Currently Listening: This Is It (Advance Listening Party) By Jack Ingram Release date: 27 March, 2007 Currently Listening: Not Too Late By Norah Jones Release date: 30 January, 2007 Currently Listening: It’s Hard to Find a Friend By Pedro the Lion Release date: 16 October, 2001

i dunno what’s wrong with today’s
major label a.k.a. THE BIG FOUR
(EMI,MCA-UNIVERSAL,WARNER,SONU-BMG).
i mean they really lost it…

back then in the 90’s when grunge
music was popular suddenly they’re
marketing bands like Matchbox Twenty
(WARNER),SISTER HAZEL(sonybmg),etc as
grunge when these bands doesn’t even
qualify to grunge lyrically and even
musically (cmon we all know SISTER
HAZEL is a folk rock band,…
..and now they never change…

marketing people are really out of
their mind..they don’t even know what
music really is..

Take a look at the RnB chart. Almost
everything with programmed
beats,hype,and a little rap is in the
RnB category to the point that drum
and bass song "My Humps by Black Eyed
Peas is considered or marketed as
RnB…WHAT???? !!! God help us all..we
must be either tone deaf or we doesnt
really know what RnB is…

true enough their are real RnB artists
today that incorporate hiphop and
popin their sounds (e.g.
Ashnati,aaliyah,Kyla,Alicia Keys,Craig
David)

But to call Promiscuous Girl and My
Hump rnb? give ua a break!!!! Nelly
furtado is not even an RnB singer (for
all u info she’s a folk singer from
canada but somehow made a hiphop/drum
& bass album,not RNB)…

and here comes the nice part…

EMO music or emotional rock is
suddenly rising nowadays for some
unknown reason.

but back in the late 80’s and the
90’s,this genre is unknown to the
masses..only those underground
alternative rock fans knew this type
of music.( and yes,there are some emo
in the 90’s that’s marketed as
grunge…funny isnt it?)

u might recognize names like Blue
October, Pedro The Lion, Jimmy Eat
World,Bright Eyes,Switchfoot..these
are bands in the 90’s with deep
emotional lyrics and also uses emotion
in thier performances…

..but here’s the catch, switchfoot is
not considered emo during the
90’s..heck,nobody even knows they
existed..

..but now,they’re being marketed by
SONY as emo-rock (maybe due to their
hair) and yes jon forman does sing
with emotion but compare their lyrics
today than their lyrics before…which
is more emo?

..and the Wiki also define emo as a
subgenre of punk rock but really if u
come to realize it Bright Eyes is not
even Punk Rock..Dashboard Confessional)
Chris Carraba) maybe fronting a
Christian punk band FURTHER SEEMS
FOREVER but his Dashboard project is
really far from punk. he even admit
that during spaces between FURTHER
SEEMS FOREVER TOUR he sits down in his
bedroom and recorded what would become
as the first DASHBOARD project because
he didn’t feel it fit to his punk band.

..and that was the beginning of what
we now call as commercial EMO..but
dont get me wrong,dashboard was not
making that side project for
commercial purposes.its like his audio
diary but somehow it was
different,while the EMO’s of the late
80’s and 90’s deal with darker themes,
dashboard deals with pain but also
with coping up.in other words,his
sound is in the positive light (no
wonder,He’s a christian and christians
have joy even in pain).

and then as kids noticed him,major
label begun looking for band that
sounds like either Dashboard or
Further and marketed them as emo.

one example is Fall Out Boy.when they
started emo was not even on their
mind. They were just plain hardcore
and punk rock band but somehow the
label considered them emo..and so they
released their first major album which
until now i cannot still understand
why it is emo.i just can’t feel the
honesty and emotion.

The only band i can think of that
major label gt bullseye is MY CHEMICAL
ROMANCe…i may not understand some of
their lyrics as they sing but as i
read them, its really emo… plus
their performance is emo too…

truth is EMO should not be stereotyped
as punk rock ssubgenre becasue i know
a lot of artists that are EMO as can
get,both lyrcally and in performance.
examples are:
Andrew Osenga,Nickel Creek,Bright
Eyes,Griffin House,

but if u wanna hear real emo,then one
artist comes to mind…HANK WILLIAMS.

Currently Listening: Electric By Jack Ingram Release date: 04 June, 2002

Currently Listening: Live Wherever You Are By Jack Ingram Release date: 10 January, 2006

Currently Listening: Crashings By Falling Up Release date: 24 February, 2004

Lately i’ve been listening to aother genre than country and it struck me how we can connect those genre(rnb,punk,hiphop,jazz) into country music…

i mean look at ryan adams,he breaks boundaries when he incorporated punk into his country.

Look at Bright Eyes’ emo folk incorporated country…

Look at Jars of Clay’s alternative rock incorporated country…

Look at Cowboy Troy and Chance’s hiphop incorporated country…

Bon Jovi’s rock incorporated country…

Leann Rimes’ pop incorporated country…

and of course there’s the MUZIK MAFIA’s RnB incorporated country…

i mean the lists could go on…

what im trying to say is why stereotype?

Heck,its just music and as long as its not crap (like rachelle ann go or william hung),then i think our ears can handle it..

…But then again in this corrupt society crappy stuffs are getting more airplay than the real one…

u dont have to believe me,all u have to do is listen to the radio and hear songs about CIRCLES (lingin).:-)

P.S.

im not bias in country music by the way. u might think i am but im not. truth is there are lots of country crap out there…

Currently Listening: Life Is Calling My Name By Shane Yellowbird Release date: 26 October, 2006

Currently Listening: Viridian By Greencards Release date: 06 March, 2007

Currently Listening: For Me It’s You By Train Release date: 31 January, 2006

Currently Listening: Place Where You Belong By Normals Release date: 09 April, 2002

words/music:michael anthony curan
genre: slow punk rock

VERSE ONE:
i met her last november
she was sitting at my favorite diner
few talks and then its gettin’ better
we became closer to each other

PRE CHORUS ONE:
and i started to treat her like a real friend
like the one who’ll stay in the end
never realized i was just a mere acquintance
never saw the look in her eyes

CHORUS:
maybe this is my life
maybe its who i am
always trust a friend
and later it will be broken down
all i did was to be
a real friend to (CENSORED-NAME INCLUDED).just think of something that rhyme with the word "be")
but all she did was lie to me
she never realized
how deeply im hurtin’ inside…

VERSE TWO:
As far as i remember
She’s the only one i can relate to
but i never felt something special
just to be a close friend is all im asking

PRE CHORUS TWO:
but why do i cry evrytime she told me lies
and why do i reacted this way
am i crazy, do i still want friendship
am i stupid pls tell me ok?

(REPEAT CHORUS)

BRIDGE:
i still treasure the friendship that we have
even though i mean nothing to you
u can still count on me when people turn you down
when there’s no one around
and no (CENSORED AGAIN-NAME INCLUDED) to be found

(REPEAT CHORUS)

I’ll be a friend u can hold on
standing in the middle of pain

2007 michael anthony curan

FEBRUARY 21 at around 11pm at Bo’s coffee Cebu Doctor’s university branch on a piece of tissue paper and a bartender’s ballpen which eventually i took home with me..

im so sorry i forgot to return it…maybe tomorrow if ever i still…am never mind..

Good night cowboys!!!

Currently Listening: Smile, It’s the End of the World By Hawk Nelson Release date: 17 August, 2006

telling u kids,no matter how u smile and pretend ur happy,let’s bet, deep inside ur not…cause only the person with a harden heart or a stone-iced cold heart can’t feel anything and i doubt if that person is even human.

c’mon nothing’s even good in keeping grudge. remember,when u forgive, ur setting a person free and that person is actually YOU ! and not the other party…

Currently Listening: Not All Who Wander Are Lost By Chris Thile Release date: 09 October, 2001

Currently Listening: How to Grow a Woman from the Ground By Chris Thile Release date: 12 September, 2006

Currently Listening: Let It Fall By Sean Watkins Release date: 13 March, 2001

there are people who will never stop whining and complaining about others being rude to them or because they’re not being treated according to how they wanna be treated…

but before u whine,examine urself first..

are u mad at them because u see urself in them?

or ur mad because unawarely(there such a word?),ur just like them?

i’ve seen people like these and to tell u,from the outside looking in,its a funny look yet i pity them…

its time to grow up woi….

Currently Listening: Panic By MxPx Release date: 07 June, 2005

Currently Listening: Before Everything & After By MxPx Release date: 16 September, 2003

Currently Listening: Not All Who Wander Are Lost By Chris Thile Release date: 09 October, 2001