A Day in the Life Of Me Part Tw0:The Water,Romans,Salvation,and The Issue Of Being Good
It’s been a good night sleep for me last night.I slept at 12 midnight and woke up at 1:30 AM.I almost missed the water but thank God still got a few minutes to take a bath.:-)
Anyways i went on to eat and read a few chapters from country songwriter Betty Jean Robinson’s book Up On Melody MOuntain about her struggle as a poor child growing up in the mountains of Kentucky.
Also read Romans chapter 2 today about the kindness of God that leads to repentance.that’s something i really pondered on because i wonder how God’s kindness leads to repentance.Do we repent our sins when we enjoyed all the luxuries God has given us? Do we repent when our lives seems to float just like we wanted it to be?I wonder why the kindness of God leads to repentance.
Then suddenly i got some kinda mind thought-shifting.I remember those days in my life that i deserved brutal punishment from God for always disobeying Him yet i was bailed out from it.Those days when i deserved to die yet God let me live…..just to have a second chance.Oh, how could i be so foolish! How could i not get it? Because of God’s kindness i’n still here typing this journal on myspace.Because of God’s kindness i’m still writing songs.Because of GOd’s kindness i stil have a beautiful and caring mother.Because of God’s kindness i’m still a medical technology student (i thought i’ll be debarred).
Praise the Lord ! Thank God for sparing my unfaithful life.I know no matter how i try to be good i can never achieve it without the grace of God.Not that being good can take you to heaven.No.Heaven is not a matter of either ur bad or good.It’s a free gift of God but with an expensive cost,the blood of Jesus.In order to go there(heaven),all you have to do is recognize that you are a sinner in need of God’s forgiveness and accept Jesus in your heart.
But to tell you the truth,i only arrived at that conclusion in life back in the days when i felt so useless and desolate.When i felt suicide is the only answer.But thank God His kindness came over my life,and it lead me to repentance!
So am i a good person now? DO i have halos on my head? No.I’m still like everybody,a sinner.But the difference is that now i have hope.Now i am secured that when i die,heaven is where i go.
I’m still a pilgrim in this world and can only arrive at perfection when the day will come that i’ll be there with the angels.
So why do i brag myself to be good?I never brag myself to be good cause like i said i can never do so.But i pray everyday that God will bless me and make me a blessing to someone everyday.And that by his grace,I wil not mess up my life today….and the days to come.
amen
Michael Anthony Curan
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