A Day In The Life Of Me Part One
Hello everyone !!!
This is gonna be my first ever online journal of a day in my life.
Well,nothing much really today.I woke up at around 6am today,said a little prayer and get on with life.But what’s to get on? Classes doesn’t start yet and i don’t have enough money to roam around the city.So after i ate my breakfast i went directly to the internet cafe (i don’t have a computer! ) and start surfing.I’m so overwhelmed lately by the writings and music of Andrew Peterson so i went to his website and read his journal while listenig to his music on myspace (its a shame the philippines is not selling his cd !).I am so touch by his journal entry entitled Brittle Brown where he talks about "being like two people in the same body".Kinda like what Paul talks about in the book of Romans.
It hit me cause i feel the same way.Sometimes,ok,most of the times,i did what is not pleasing in the eyes of God while all the way im longing to do the opposite.It’s a constant struggle and every time it comes out i just couldn’t help my self but cry out to my Father to hold so i won’t fall.
And He did !
Sometimes we view trials and bad circumstances as storms in life or sometimes we even think that God has left us.But actually these very trials and bad circumstances are like "wake up calls" to us to return to God cause I know he doesn’t want us to suffer forever. (and i mean the literal FOREVER!).
Also today i finalized the music and arrangement of a song i wrote called " Take This Sins Away" about my struggle and desire to let God take control of my life. Cause honestly,no matter how badly we want to change ourselves,the more we try it,the greater we fail.Why? Because we are only human and everything in us are corrupt (romans 3:23).And it don’t take a genius to realize that! All u have to do is look around you,or better yet,look around yourself.
Anyways,at around 1pm i turned on my radio and listen to this program called "Talk To Papa" where listener’s called and ask for advice to fellow listeners.Most of the problem they raised are actually non sense and some teenage love affair.But what caught my ear was this woman,age 22.Her story is that she had a bf who doesn’t treat her nice.He always threw words that are hurtful to her.Out of grievance and pain,she met this other guy somewhere and somehow they became good friends and he became her comforter.
One day,she and her mother had a fight.I think it was big enough for her to move out of their house and live with her comforter,the guy she just met.To make long story short,she got pregnant and now on her 9 months.But during her 7 months,this guy started treating her unkindly,kinda like the same way her x-boyfriend treated her back then.Until they fight over small things and later,he finally confessed that he’s been married and that the girl is somewhere abroad.
Because she can’t take it no more,she kicked the guy out of the house.but she eventually regretted it cause now there’s no night where she doesn’t cry out for him to come back.
Anyways her problem is she doesn’t know what to do anymore.She attempted suicide once but it doesn’t work.She’s afraid to go back to her parents house cause she’s afraid she will not be accepted anymore.
Some listeners offered some advices like she should talk heart to heart with the guy and that she should go back to her parents and ask for forgiveness.Some says that she should pray constantly to God,especially that this girl doesnt pray that much.while others pass judgment to her that what happened to her is like a karma from her mother for disobeying her.
Well,i aint got to interact cause my cell phone has no load.(thanks to my tight allowance) but if i was able to,i would tell the girl to swallow her pride and face the now.that she should go back to her parents and heartlily ask for forgiveness.I believe no mother or father in the world cannot forgive their daughters.
Partly,i also agree with some listeners bout their karma opinion.But i DON’T CONSIDER it karma.Rather,i consider it as God touching her very soul.Kinda like a wake up call,"Daughter,u choose this life and i know its not easy but hey,there is hope.Look up to me and i will turn ur world upside down.Remember,there is no trials and pain that i allowed that u cannot handle.all is well.Just trust iin me my child."
Actually i can relate to her too.not that i’m pregnant (hehehehe) but i also experienced some trials that i thought so deep that God left me.But in the midst of it all,god was just showing me a better way.That i cannot continue living in sin for it doesn’t glorify Him.
So folks,thats it for now for i have lots of things to do,like reading and eating and texting.hehehhehehe
see u again next time.tonight i’ll probably sleep at around 12md cause my land lord doesn’t want me to roam around the city at night.she’s another angel in disguise.lol
GOD BLESS,
Michael Anthony Curan
